and i swear things arent great . i miss cheerleading so much . i miss all the wacky moments i miss all the cheerleaders and most of all i miss the past !
damn the present . this isnt what i wanted . and im gonna say what i feel like saying , im the owner of this blog , ill spill what i wanna spill .
firstly for boyfie , im sick and you should understand , plus further more dont tell me that you wanna tell me something but in the end you go like ' ill tell you when i wanna tell ' piss off okay . you dont seemed to care alr , so why should i right ? and yes , ill always msg you first but at least appreciate it . you felt guilty as you havent spend much time with me nowadays or should i say you HAVENT spend ANY TIME WITH ME . i said it was OKAY and i understand . so stop thinking . its freaking irritating yknow , i swear . and i havent see you for 5 days now . gett it ?! and when i ask you out , its an expected answer and that will be , soccer training . okay fine , you cant make it . but when you skipped the training , where the f did you go ? ohh , slack with some other people yeaa ? okay , i dont seem to care much alr . im tired of this love . and im sick of trying . seriously , if its gonna continue like this , let it be . ill ask for it . i dont wanna say any more 'sorry's' and thing like that . enough is enough . i know i still love you alot and i know i cant imagine things without you , but when i think back again . its such a waste of time , love , tears . its plain stupid .
i know people will go like , ' he's a good boyfriend dont let him go . you should understand him ' oke , yea , i know he's a good boyfriend , the one which will wipe your tears away , the one that will be there for you when you're breaking down but THINGS WILL CHANGE . PEOPLE CHANGE , HE CHANGE . ill hold on for now . im strong .
oke dokey, so much for boyfie , i cnt help but to write it all out . im currently having a high fever with running nose and a slight cough . i just recovered from my food poisoning and idk if i will come to sch on monday or not . but ill try my best to come , im strong . lol . oke , went to religious class yesterday after a month . i miss my friends there . they went like after a long fairy tale time , you came . haha , yeah . i miss you people alot . and i need to catch up on the studies . lol . i need to study . ive been slacking . and i drawing . hhaaa . i drew for BUBU ! hahahaha . im gg out with bubu and others on monday . looking forward . =D nyahaha .
ohh , boyfie wont be coming , soccer training . I MISS PANJANG ALOT TOO .
13 more day to annie . sigh . i will be looking forward to it only if all these things stop . well , i so have my gfs that have always been there for me all the way .
I feel like being hospitalized . i dont wanna go to sch and meet him . i dont wanna get the whole burden again . i wanna rest in peace . not as in dying but just hav epeace in my mind and make him understand that he have ,ade me gone through a whole lot of stuff .
one last kiss ,
one last touch ,
one last hug ,
tell me , tell me , tell me .
do you want IT to happen ?!
Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 12:35 PM / 0 daisies
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