♥ I admit . Ruyu ; you're right . I felt really guilty when you said that . This feeling is so strong that's its taking control of myself . I could hardly see that you're the one I love . Maybe that was why the quote " love is blind " even existed . I know there were a lot of ups and a lot of downs too . But still when I told myself that I could move on even you weren't beside me , I knew I couldn't . Maybe what you told Ruyu was true . I used to think why do you put up all my hopes and I ended up seeing them crash in front of my eyes .You rushed into my life , and you disappeared by the next blink of an eye . I thought you were just like those others . But then , you came back . I almost let you pass by . I almost left you with no warning . I wanted myself to forget about you for my own good . I thought I'll be happier without you because you're just a friend to me . When I thought again , everything was just me . I never thought about you or how you'll feel . Till today , I've finally realized what its to be when you're selfish . I did post about you before , a long one actually . I said I wont give up . And the next post after that was I gave up . What a loser I am .
I said I'll hold on no matter what . Whether it takes a year or so , I'll hold on . You tried your best to contact me , when I'm just enjoying myself outside . Isn't that what you did to me the previous time ? I didn't mean to pay back what you did . But then , you needed me and I wasn't there . This time round you came and stick through me . But I was the one who just wanted to run away from you . You were sweet enough to call me up straight away when Ruyu told you I was very sick . All I did was give you grumpy voices over the phone . You were so concerned about me but you didn't show it at all . Maybe I just couldn't see it . How could I see my future without you now ? Maybe you were showering all your love to me , but I was just too busy that you were doing all that . I shall admit now that everything was all my fault . Yes , I'll show you what love is . I'll show you what " my everything " means . I'll prove to you that this smile came back all because of you .
I'll be your listening ear ; your air to breath cause when I'm with you I thought nothing of love . You haven't seen me in my darkest , but I'll open up and bring you in . If you won't believe I could write a whole book about you . I'm not giving you up for any one this time . I'll go through the pain that you'll give and the love we'll share . It may take time , as long as possible . So be it . As I've experienced the feeling when you're gone , I shall not go any where now but stay by your side . You may get into fights and get me worried . I shall get used to it , cause i love you . I'll hear the words that you want me to hear . Cause out of all the words you say , I'll only remember three .
Ku kan selalu menanti balasan cintamu ,
Ku berjanji mencintaimu sepenuh jiwaku .
Di saat ini hatiku rindu belaian cinta darimu ;
Ku harap kau merestui cinta dariku ,
Yang selalu setia menunggu dirimu .
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Friday, December 26, 2008 @ 12:30 AM / 0 daisies
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