Life can't be any more upsetting than this . Oh , did you know I cried on the last episode of GG because it was utterly sweet Chuck and Blair scenes . And the song ~ :(

I need to get this weight lifted off my shoulder , so here I am pouring out my feelings . Be judgemental or anything you like , I couldn't care any more .

I miss you , you know all those fights we made it through , sleep overs , getting into trouble together and party , dance and everything . I didn't know just one mistake could destroy it all . Never a second of my life without you have I stopped thinking about what happened . I wonder every time if you'd ever spare a thought for me . Yea , I was in the wrong but you wouldn't give me a chance to explain and apologize . I miss you like hell and only god knows how much . I miss how we always stood by each other through it all and make each others day . Share everything . And at the very moment when you've found your soul mate , I was happy for you and it was beyond words . Though I am always stuck in the past , you're the only one that could see right through me . I miss how we cried for each other . Oh fate , why must you do this to me ? I treasured everything of our friendship . Only if you knew , only if you read this . I'd put my pride down for you . I'd go an extra mile just to have you back . You've never been replaced . Never , not once I have a thought to have a new best girl . Who cares if I'm crying while typing this out , I'm sincere . I'm sorry if I had been one of your most shittiest frienemy or whatever you call it . I just want us back , my best baby girl , my best friend , my pillar of strength .

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